Day 170 AF--Beyond Tired
My whole being feels exhausted...physically yes. But there's a level of emotional, mental, and spiritual depletion as well. Yesterday was *supposed* to be a gentle day where I gave myself room. And then--I had a tech issue with work that I needed to address. I had some work that I told myself I *couldn't say no to* (I own my own business--so I'm my own mean boss) Add to that hubby and I have been working primarily from home together for one year with little other adult social interaction. (I've been out for some work but he's been in our basement working virtually for a year). So needless to say, I get whatever unpleasantness has been stirred in him. Pre-alcohol free me--I was superb at managing all of this and calmly processing when he would take shit out on me/advocate for myself. All very cool, calm, and collected. Self-regulated if you will. Now--not so much. My energy level and capacity are less with work. And all my emotions come to the su...